i’m such a fucking retarded piece of shit i can’t fucking do anything right i’m such a fucking waste of space if i was any less lucky than to be boirn where i was and to the people i was i’d be dead a thousand fucking times over i can’t fucking do anything for myself i’ve never had a real job i can’t fucking follow instructions without them being spelled out step by fucking step i can’t go outside i can’t make friends i can’t even fucking follow a stupid fucking recipe to save my life and i can’t even mentally handle fucking up something stupid and inconsequential because i’m such a fucking fat disgusting retarded chud i really should kill myself but i’m not going to because i’m too afraid and i’ve promised people that i wouldn’t even though i’m just fucking wasting oxygen and eating up everyone’s fucking energy and it’s only a matter of time before i get kicked out and my boyfriend breaks up with me because they’ll all realize i’m never going to get better it’s just this or even worse forever and no matter what i do i’m genuinely fucking incapable of any meaningful change fuck this fuck everything i hate being a stupid fucking tranny i hate being alive