inherent misogyny of being a []

I think being a [] is maybe inherently sexist. I claim to be a woman but I’m obviously not. I don’t look like one, I don’t act like one, I don’t sound or think like one. At best I can do my best impression of one, which will never be accurate because it is tainted by sexism as it stems from a patriarchal perspective. By the sin of my birth I will never know what it is like to be a woman. I have never and will never endure the tortures that women are forced to endure in our society. I will never understand what it is like. I will never be a woman because I never had that label forced on me, and I never suffered for it. Or at least I never suffered in the right way or enough. I am a mentally ill, attention-seeking, autistic man who has a perverse autogynephilic drive to pretend to be a woman, and if I ever detrans I’ll kill myself. What a disgusting, wretched existence.Death would, perhaps, be merciful, but mercy is not something I deserve. I should be made to suffer as long as possible because I am bereft of the ability to empathize. I must have suffering forced upon me such that I can become something akin to a person.