About me
I'm V. I'm a 20-something year old tranny. People don't usually like it when I use that word but it feels like the only one with enough venom behind it to accurately convey how disgusting it is. Here's some more cool facts:
- i have no irl friends
- i will never be a woman
- i'm the sole cause of all of the problems in my life
- i use she/her pronouns <3
- i like programming (malebrained) and linux (agp cope)
I used to be normal, i used to be a person. I don't know what happened. I wish I was different. i have no friends irl (not for lack of trying). i'm hardly know any other trans people and the ones i do i can't relate to at all because they either have real problems or really buy into the whole trans pride rhetoric. I legitimately don't understand having pride about being trans as anything other than a cope. I'm not strong or special, it's only ever made my life worse. If I was cis 99% of my problems would disappear instantly. Though I suppose that's only proof that none of my problems are real. All of my problems are my own fault for being a disgusting agp fetishist.
I think the worst part about this by far is being painfully aware of it but unable to do a single fucking thing about it. I know i'm a disgusting autogynephile but i can't stop, things would be so much easier if i was an actual person but i don't think that i am. Maybe i'm just saying that to deflect responsibility off of myself and claim that it's just my nature and that there's nothing at all i can do about it when in actuality i can and always have been able to stop and have just chosen not to at every opportunity because this is the life i actually always wanted.